19th birthday

the baby of RS, SSM and Krypto has finally hit her 19th birthday!! =) yayyy
thank you everyone who has wished me happy birthday! i am feeling loved~ woooohooo =)

ytd my family (featuring Ian) went for dinner at cafe cartel. food was very disappointing actually =( wasn't as good as before now. anw, then we shopped around and went to starbucks for some frapps and headed home =) yummm yummm

and then this morning i woke up to see my handsome boy's face right in front of mine and he wished me happy birthday =D *blissful look*
and then like cinderella he 'fled' =P
no la...his dad (in his pumpkin carriage) was waiting for him downstairs and he needs to leave for work =) awwww so sweet right!
and beside me was his glass slipper =) haha...no la it was my birthday present that he had brought for me it was a rip curl bag..
a 2010 weekly calender...
and a cylinder of eco-friendly colour pencils plus match-sticks erasers!!
i loved them, thank you babe =)

and then my younger bro, sennett woke up and wished me a happy birthday and gave me my bday gift! a sweet little bookmark and a pair of fork and spoon earrings =) love them too!and then there's those who sent me birthday wishes through facebook and through text messages =) thank u too! I am feeling very loved by everyone =) *hugs* oh, and happy birthday to xiao dan too! first time meeting someone whose birthday falls on the same year, month and day as mine =)

pictures as promised..

okie dokies =) here are the pictures from the camera as promised!! these memories with granny are just so precious =)

Kinda lonely

Boohoo...
Everyone's gone away...
She's at trng, the rest @ Maldives, family @ different places, good friends @ other churches.
Sighs...
And I still hafta face work tmr plus only 1 day of leave.
Which i'll take off for you..
Hate this feeling so much.
Feels like when I was all alone on my birthday during my 2nd year of poly......







At least Christmas was great this year!
Grandpa distributed Granny's belongings to us=)














Happy Christmas and a Merry New Year=)

merry christmas =)

merry christmas everyone!! while we celebrate this day, i pray that we do not forget the meaning behind this festive season..the day where we see hope =)

In the fullness of time, the Word became flesh,
In the fullness of time all nations were blessed,
In the fullness of time He came.

enjoy this day but remember not to eat too much! =) that little snack isn't worth your beautiful waistline... heehee!

*ahem* (a little self reminder here too...) *winks*

times spent with granny =)

14 dec 2009, Monday...
i went with my aunts and cousin to take granny to the doctor's for her regular check up =) she seemed to enjoy herself that day except that after we've seen the doctor, she's rather worried about her condition bcos she saw that the doctor is worried. The doctor wrote a long letter in case there's anytime that she feels breathless -- which means her condition is very critical and needs to be admitted into the hospital. The letter is written to the doctor who will be seeing her at that time, writing about her recent medical histories and what kind of medications have been prescribed to her.
i felt the goosebumps and was honestly very scared that she's leaving us soon =( my heart skipped many beats and my breathing became slightly faster....no please don't go, please at least stay for the lunar new year..
I WILL BE MISSING YOU VERY VERY DEARLY =((

*sigh*

anw, this is supposed to be a happy post.. *clears throat and sits up straight* i cannot afford to be so down now.. I must cherish every moment that she's still here with me and not dwell in the unhappy thoughts of her leaving.
these few days she's feeling dizzy. God i pray that You'll keep her safe, and watch over her, protect her from harm and let Your peace fall upon her =)

23 dec 2009, Wednesday...
yesterday i went to visit her again and learned to make tang yuan!

the uncooked tang yuans! the plate on the right is mine...lol =)the pandan leaves used to boil the sweet water =)the finished bowl of tang yuan!!! yum yum~and she tried to teach me to cook her curry vegetables..except no measurements were given so i can only know the ingredients needed and just estimate the amount of each food item needed according to my needs... =S

well, here are some of the ingredients!!
chili padi, belacan, small onions, red ginger, and of course what would be curry vegetable with the veggies? =D
and in the night, my dad brought sennett, granny and I to walk around at clark quay area! =) we wanted to go to orchard road to look at the christmas lightings and decorations but there would be too many people and parking would be a problem too =(
and it will be even more difficult to push granny around the area in her wheelchair

still, granny had fun! we took pictures and had our laughs and even bought ice-cream from the roadside vendor -- something we haven't done in ages =) pictures are still in the camera..i couldn't find the cable so i'm still unable to upload the photos... but they will be up ASAP! =)
I'm glad I have the chance to take granny out again yesterday =) I LOVE YOU, GRANNY!!! *hugs* stay happy okay? =)

boo hoo

I'm not happy.

Headaches and weird timings.

Christmas presents not bought yet.

Working on Sunday.

Unfit.

Comfort is scarce..............


Jo

WTH!

Dazed and stressed.

Pissed off in fact.

Some people forgot that their brains are meant to be used for a purpose.

I need self-control....=)

My job is winning the war against me....-_-

Josh

old posts

i was reading my old blog posts and i think i sounded a bit stupid now that i dun feel the same as i did when i was writing then =P lol

later going to meet gabriel to go for his church's games day. my gosh i hope i won't hurt my finger again =( it hasn't recovered since last tuesday when i hurt it..
*sigh* and God, bless me with journey mercy when i'm on gab's bike!! it'll be the first time i'm on a motorbike on the Singapore roads *gasps*

hmmmz..my tball performance is falling now
thanx to my finger =( must jia you jia you!! it's depressing but i shall press on and do my best
improve like nobody's business and give them a shock =)
go go go mousey!!

The passing

This week has really been some sort of a milestone.

It became the 1st time in close to 2 years that I've fallen sick.
Overstrained? Exhausted? Humility?
I took off last Monday and Tuesday to rest at home to regain my strength.
I had a mid-range temperature fever coupled with "hot & cold chills and a very bad throat.
I felt helpless, laughing at myself for telling everyone that I wouldn't fall ill.-_-
Certainly a hard knock on my pride.. Rah!

Tuesday, 8/12/09 also marks the day my grandma departing this Earth.
I'm glad and at the same time a little sad.
I visited her constantly at the hospital every week before this.
She had dementia, kidney failure and rejected all food that was given to her.
But it did not deny her from being cheerful and happy when we visited.
She would often ask, "how are you? long time no see, My you grown so big!!"
She was a cute little lady that was generous in nature.
Always caring for others first, even though she was in her weak state.
She would make sure all of us were to have a drink when we visited her.

Near her final hour, she was not digesting anything we gave her and moreover had pain all over.
It brought me down to tears when I saw her in this state.
Tubes forced down her throat.
What really moved me was her faith.
She shouted, Jesus save me.
As though, only knowing that God was the only person to be able to save her.
My grandpa was the strongest of everyone one of us.
Telling us the verse, "for me, to live is Christ, to die is Gain."
Simple yet so powerful.
(the verse chosen to be in the obituaries)

During the course of the wake, each one of us, parent, aunt, uncle, grandchild all played a part with making preparations and being great hosts. And during the wake services sharing what granny meant to us and what she had done. Espacially her famous cooking styles and generous character.

On Friday night, we performed "you hold me now" by hillsongs. the grandchildren performed it together. Cal on the drums, Rachel on the guitar and voice, Evan & Jeanette the backup singers, myself on the piano and supplying the voice. We shivered as we took the stage, each stating what granny meant to us before performing.

I was cold very cold(temperature of aircon), and yet I wanted to do a good job. And I can safely say all of us did. We sang and played our hearts out!! I'll even bet granny enjoyed our performances. I wiped a tear of my face and I was glad=)

Granny wanted to be buried and so on Saturday we moved her to Chua Chu Kang Christian cemetary to be buried. It was peaceful and all of us knew that she would have liked how we did everything for her. Comforted that she is now in safe hands..


My prayer walk hasn't been exactly the best but I will improve it and I will ensure that my friendship with God and relationship with him is worthy of him.

Indeed, to live is Christ, to die is Gain.




The lyrics to "You Hold Me Now"

VERSE 1:
On that day when I see
All that You have for me
When I see You face to face
There surrounded by Your grace
All my fears swept away
In the light of Your embrace
Where Your love is all I need
And forever I am free

PRE CHORUS 1:
Where the streets are made of gold
In Your presence healed and whole
Let the songs of heaven
Rise to You alone

CHORUS:
No weeping no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now You hold me now
No darkness no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me nowYou hold me now

VERSE 2:
In this life I will stand
Through my joy and my pain
Knowing there's a greater day
There's a hope that never fails
Where Your Name is lifted high
And forever praises rise
For the glory of Your Name
I'm believing for the day

PRE CHORUS 2:
Where the wars and violence cease
All creation lives in peace
Let the songs of heaven
Rise to You alone

BRIDGE:
For eternity
All my heart will give
All the glory to Your Name

holidays

yeahhhhh exams are over!!!
awesome possums =)

now i can go for more tchoukball trngs, go out with friends, and my cousins =), and do my runs to lose fats, watch dramas...
sounds like a pretty lovely life to me =)
plus chritmas is coming! not forgetting my birthday too! haha my last 'teen' birthday

speaking of birthdays..
i realized XIAO DAN HAS THE SAME BIRTH DATE AS ME!!
29 DECEMBER 1990! omgee
so coincidental..she must be my long lost twin =P lol

anw i shall be resting now. did 5km run today despite the muscle aches i have from ytd's trng... =) i hope i'll be fine tmr!
and tmr i'm gonna go ktving with krypto!!! hehe like finally can get to see them again! so excited =) haha
plus there's trng. so i'd better rest early =)

and hunny, get well soon okay! =) *bisou*
je t'aime babaye.. i'll see u tmr yeah?
and i'll cook the japanese curry for u to take to work nx time =) today i cooked it successfully for my family =D it was really tasty but minimal though...maybe i'll let u try it soon!

okie dokies =) nitey nites ppl!

last paper

i've got a last paper this thursday -- sociology
but i cant seem to properly study the subject...
dunno what to expect, just like sport mgmt, and no tutorials too..
*sigh*

anw, trng at pingyi ytd was a blast =) we had friendly match with the RP girls and the guys from national squad =) we did really well i think..hehe
but my stamina needs to go up more! and i need to jump higher! i tried to run to the other side of the court for 3rd line defence but then i gave up cos i realized i'd be too tired to jump for my shots afterwards =P

hehe..too heavy alr must go lose weight!! =P fat people cannot run and jump well...
i'm so bored i keep browsing my old photos on facebook...oops.
i'd better get back to revision =)
3rd DECEMBER HERE I COME!

exam period

gosh i feel stressed right after my french paper was handed in!! bcos my nx 3 papers will be killing me =(

oh wells... just take it as it comes i guess
today must skip tchoukball trng at kovan somemore =( *soupir*
that's why i went running just now
make up for trng..though it's not really the same. firstly i'm alone, secondly, i don't get to play tchoukball and lastly, it's not as tiring bcos of the time constraint.

and I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT! omg i totally just ballooned like a pregnant woman putting on natal weight =/ must be due to all the exam stress and snacking and lack of exercise =(
i feel so unfit and i hate the feeling!!!!!!!!!
JE TRÈS DÉTESTE ÇA!

boo..
anw, i should get back to mugging. have 2 papers over the nx 2 days..
all the best to me. God bless my soul~